Spanking Tunnel Vision
I am getting my punishment spanking on Friday.
I am hyper focused on it, partly because even though it is punishment, I am excited about it (masochism; cleaning of the slate; I am spanko, therefore I get spanked; and the cycle begins again), and partly because I am dreading it (pain; lecture; corner; more pain).
A love/hate thing.
And so, here I am....with spanko tunnel vision, staring down this long hallway of the week ahead, at the white light at the end and I can't quite decide whether I want to run toward it, or hide from it.
The irony?
As I waste time, peering down the hallway, trying to decide what to do, the light is moving towards me, as each "today, naughty one sports an unblemished bottom" day slips by.......
Damn. Its Wednesday already...where did the week go? And will it hurry up and keep going?
I am hyper focused on it, partly because even though it is punishment, I am excited about it (masochism; cleaning of the slate; I am spanko, therefore I get spanked; and the cycle begins again), and partly because I am dreading it (pain; lecture; corner; more pain).
A love/hate thing.
And so, here I am....with spanko tunnel vision, staring down this long hallway of the week ahead, at the white light at the end and I can't quite decide whether I want to run toward it, or hide from it.
The irony?
As I waste time, peering down the hallway, trying to decide what to do, the light is moving towards me, as each "today, naughty one sports an unblemished bottom" day slips by.......
Damn. Its Wednesday already...where did the week go? And will it hurry up and keep going?