Are You Everybody?
"Perhaps we should start with what happens when you say " NO" and progress from there...." I read that comment by Dallas and it made me swoon.
A simple statement really. A simple statement made by a Disciplinarian who believes that fair, consistent discipline will bring about improvement in behavior. I dig him ;).
He speaks my language and pushes my particular "need for discipline" buttons. His matter of fact (and very ominous statement) was the catalyst for this post about behavioral expectations during punishment.....and the reason for why I decided to share another audio excerpt.
"It's not fair!"
"I dunno"
"Everyone else does it"
"No!"
Since the very beginning, Professor has been very clear of his expectations concerning proper behavior during a spanking...... He expects his naughty girl to take her punishment stoically....
*Always* stay in position, *never* reach a hand back to try to protect your bottom, maintain eye contact and proper posture, speak only when spoken to, answer all questions quickly and thoughtfully.....
In short, he expects..demands...respectful obedience as well as an attentive and receptive attitude.
My mouth used to get me in trouble a lot. It's better now....I am better about thinking before speaking...and actually, I am much more self disciplined in general. But I have always had a problem with authority.
Actually, it would probably be a wee more accurate to say I have always deliberately clashed with any authority figure I came in contact with....and would try to out think/outwit and outreason them. And more often than not? If I was in trouble, I would was to "get away with it"....whatever "it" was at that particular moment, and if I wasn't in trouble to begin with, by the time I was finished, I would be.
Until Professor that is. He has a pretty low tolerance for bullshit. And excuses. And bratting. Actually, he has no tolerance for bratting. So, he has never tolerated my bullshit. Any of it. The mental games....the defiance....the coyness...my linguistic dance to avoid responsibility...it is simply not allowed.
I have never been outright bratty or flippant. Never.
I have never cussed at Professor, called him names, used a nasty tone, raised my voice, thrown a fit, or been outwardly defiant - (except for the time that he was lecturing me in the mall -in front of a crowd of people no less!- and I was so horrified and embarrassed that at one point I crossed my arms and tried to turn away.....and....well, I have never crossed my arms again with him.... ;)
He just doesn't tolerate defiance. In any form. He has earned my respect....and I have given it to him. I want to be a good girl. I really do. And so the whole bratting thing...even in fun...just doesn't suit me.
Do I challenge him? Sure. Do I walk close to the line? All the time. I am cheeky....witty...I love to push buttons....but I will only go so far. In the end, I will not erode the foundations of respect that we have worked so hard to form. I won't. It is as fundamental to our relationship as the open and honest rule.
Where I tend to get myself in trouble? Impulsively blurting out things I inevitably end up regretting. :)
Exclamations like "But that's not fair!" tumble out of my mouth before I have the chance to stop them, and I am left squirming and staring at my shoes with that slightly sick embarrassed feeling, knowing full well that I have crossed a line and that there will be fallout.
I have said all sorts of stupid things. I have made all sorts of stupid arguments to explain to Professor and myself why I behaved a certain way....why I did what I did....or why I thought what I did was a good idea in the first place ..and this audio clip is illustrative of that fact.
(Click HERE if you can't get the clip to automatically play by clicking on the little player.)
"Everybody said I should do it."
Yup. Those words actually came out of my mouth. Oh yeah.
What am I? Twelve? Good grief.
If you take the time to listen to the clip....when you get to the part when I say that...imagine this: At that moment...listening to Professor's response to my very teenagery statement...all I could think of was that I felt like I was trapped in some surreal "Leave it to Beaver" reality....because those types of cliche "parent/child" exchanges only happen on television....
The audio is another excerpt of my last punishment session. I was not only punished for lying that day....but I faced a separate punishment for the way I handled something.....
In this clip, I am spanked over Professor's knee, and then strapped. And of course there is the whole "Are you everybody?" humiliation...
But you know what? Even though the exchange was humiliating, I am sort of glad it happened. Because once again, Professor was Professor....in classic form. He was right. Am I everybody? No, I am not. I am more than that. He demands more....and expects more.....
And yeah, I have gotten to the point where I expect more from myself as well.
"Anyone can spank... not everyone can use it to improve."
Yeah, Dallas.....I think you are right. ;)
A simple statement really. A simple statement made by a Disciplinarian who believes that fair, consistent discipline will bring about improvement in behavior. I dig him ;).
He speaks my language and pushes my particular "need for discipline" buttons. His matter of fact (and very ominous statement) was the catalyst for this post about behavioral expectations during punishment.....and the reason for why I decided to share another audio excerpt.
"It's not fair!"
"I dunno"
"Everyone else does it"
"No!"
Since the very beginning, Professor has been very clear of his expectations concerning proper behavior during a spanking...... He expects his naughty girl to take her punishment stoically....
*Always* stay in position, *never* reach a hand back to try to protect your bottom, maintain eye contact and proper posture, speak only when spoken to, answer all questions quickly and thoughtfully.....
In short, he expects..demands...respectful obedience as well as an attentive and receptive attitude.
My mouth used to get me in trouble a lot. It's better now....I am better about thinking before speaking...and actually, I am much more self disciplined in general. But I have always had a problem with authority.
Actually, it would probably be a wee more accurate to say I have always deliberately clashed with any authority figure I came in contact with....and would try to out think/outwit and outreason them. And more often than not? If I was in trouble, I would was to "get away with it"....whatever "it" was at that particular moment, and if I wasn't in trouble to begin with, by the time I was finished, I would be.
Until Professor that is. He has a pretty low tolerance for bullshit. And excuses. And bratting. Actually, he has no tolerance for bratting. So, he has never tolerated my bullshit. Any of it. The mental games....the defiance....the coyness...my linguistic dance to avoid responsibility...it is simply not allowed.
I have never been outright bratty or flippant. Never.
I have never cussed at Professor, called him names, used a nasty tone, raised my voice, thrown a fit, or been outwardly defiant - (except for the time that he was lecturing me in the mall -in front of a crowd of people no less!- and I was so horrified and embarrassed that at one point I crossed my arms and tried to turn away.....and....well, I have never crossed my arms again with him.... ;)
He just doesn't tolerate defiance. In any form. He has earned my respect....and I have given it to him. I want to be a good girl. I really do. And so the whole bratting thing...even in fun...just doesn't suit me.
Do I challenge him? Sure. Do I walk close to the line? All the time. I am cheeky....witty...I love to push buttons....but I will only go so far. In the end, I will not erode the foundations of respect that we have worked so hard to form. I won't. It is as fundamental to our relationship as the open and honest rule.
Where I tend to get myself in trouble? Impulsively blurting out things I inevitably end up regretting. :)
Exclamations like "But that's not fair!" tumble out of my mouth before I have the chance to stop them, and I am left squirming and staring at my shoes with that slightly sick embarrassed feeling, knowing full well that I have crossed a line and that there will be fallout.
I have said all sorts of stupid things. I have made all sorts of stupid arguments to explain to Professor and myself why I behaved a certain way....why I did what I did....or why I thought what I did was a good idea in the first place ..and this audio clip is illustrative of that fact.
(Click HERE if you can't get the clip to automatically play by clicking on the little player.)
"Everybody said I should do it."
Yup. Those words actually came out of my mouth. Oh yeah.
What am I? Twelve? Good grief.
If you take the time to listen to the clip....when you get to the part when I say that...imagine this: At that moment...listening to Professor's response to my very teenagery statement...all I could think of was that I felt like I was trapped in some surreal "Leave it to Beaver" reality....because those types of cliche "parent/child" exchanges only happen on television....
The audio is another excerpt of my last punishment session. I was not only punished for lying that day....but I faced a separate punishment for the way I handled something.....
In this clip, I am spanked over Professor's knee, and then strapped. And of course there is the whole "Are you everybody?" humiliation...
But you know what? Even though the exchange was humiliating, I am sort of glad it happened. Because once again, Professor was Professor....in classic form. He was right. Am I everybody? No, I am not. I am more than that. He demands more....and expects more.....
And yeah, I have gotten to the point where I expect more from myself as well.
"Anyone can spank... not everyone can use it to improve."
Yeah, Dallas.....I think you are right. ;)